Limbo

This is what my life looks like lately:

June 29: Drive from Chicago to PA
June 30: Pick up Kendall in NYC, drive to Cape Cod to see Mark in Gilbert & Sullivan's Ruddigore at College Light Opera Company
July 1: Enjoy Cape Cod, back to NYC
July 2: NYC with Kendall
July 3: Drive back to NC with dad
July 4-8: Durham
July 8-15: Atlantic Beach with Chris' family (I am here now).
July 15-20: Durham
July 20: Winston Salem with Anna and Kevin!
July 21-22: Boone
July 23-27: Asheville
July 28-August 4: Yellowstone with the Adams family

This is a loooong vacation! I am enjoying it, for the most part. It's a strange feeling not working - I wasn't expecting that.

So much of my identity is put in to my work. I am a music therapist. I work with people with disabilities. I work for a great company I believe in.

But now... who am I?

It's silly. I'm still a music therapist. I'm just on a crazy journey to Latin America with some detours along the way. In the back of my head I keep thinking, "did I make the right choice?" I miss Lifeworks, I miss Minnesota, I miss my community. But more than anything I miss feeling grounded and having a home.

It's good to have times like this, where we don't have our comforts to cling to anymore. They challenge us, make us think about what is important.

Right now, I have my sweet family (in-laws included!), sand beneath my feet, sleep, and Chris. I am so lucky to have a partner to share this journey with.

Here in this present moment, this present day, I am grateful. I am filled with breath and life and that is enough.